The power of music

       Most of us realize the effect music can have on atmosphere or setting.  Whether you are trying to set a meditative or romantic mood, or a party atmosphere, music can make all the difference in the world.  I have now come to realize the power of music to not only effect atmosphere and setting but how deeply it can effect emotions.
      I don't know if anyone else is like this, but for me, I go on streaks or binges with certain things; for a while all I'll do is watch sports on TV (all right this is more of a constant) , lately I've been on a book binge-one after another, and the same with cooking or art-I'll have stale periods followed by bursts of creativity and inspiration.
      Most recently I have been immersing myself in music (mostly listening-my playing ability is often too frustrating to be able to enjoy-although I do like singing-but I digress).  Thanks to an old friend, I was reintroduced to some music I used to love passionately but had sort of neglected and forgotten while exploring other, newer (to me) musical genres.  But it was like an avalanche-once I started, I couldn't stop.  He had posted some youtube links to a band's old videos (pretty poor from the video production angle but the music stands the test of time).  One of the cool things about youtube is that it gives you suggestions for other stuff based on what you are viewing.  So one thing leads to another- it's like a stream of consciousness thing, delving deeper into a particular style, but then exploring tangents.  That's how I started by head banging to Black Sabbath's very heavy War Pigs and ended up grooving to the rockabilly stylings of Robert Plant and Allyson Krauss collaborating on Gone, Gone, Gone.  It was like a buzz, and I couldn't get enough, which brings me back to my point (finally).  I got a rush, felt energized, almost like a jump start-nerves a tingling.  In other words more than just setting a mood or atmosphere I suddenly felt ALIVE!
   So continuing on my musical binge/exploration I clicked on another friends link/suggestion for  an Adele song.  I don't know much of her, but I do know she has an amazing voice, and have really enjoyed what little I have heard. The song was Someone Like You.  Wow!  As expected she just nailed it (live on Kimmel)- but man did it effect me-I went from electrically alive to somberly fighting back tears-powerful is the best description of the effect- and I was stunned at the sudden turnaround of emotions.
    This realization of the power of music brought me back to when I was struggling with the end of my marriage.  I had sought advice through various outlets and found myself on a website for men going through divorce.  One guy's shared experience  really jumped out at me. He mentioned that for almost a year he couldn't listen to music (with lyrics), it was too painful and depressing.  That was me!  I had been having a pretty hard time with things and had found myself in tears numerous times while listening to songs that evoked memories, seemed to describe my situation or chirped happily about the love they had found that I had lost.  It seemed like every song was about love or love lost. I guess it's no wonder, as love and the loss of  love are both pretty inspiring from a creative standpoint.  At the time, I was feeling overwhelmed by everything and was sort of surprised to find myself in a pit of despair.  To carry the pit analogy further, instead of helping, music felt more like dirt was being piled on from above...I felt buried.  In the past I had been able to find solace in music but suddenly  it was making things worse, ugh.
   That was a while ago now-as many friends and family had told me, time did indeed help lessen the pain.  As I found out listening to Adele, the scars are still pretty sensitive though.  I am very glad to have found myself able to enjoy most music again...think I'll stick to Sabbath for a while though, not too much crying over that.


Peace to the Planet
and thanks to my old buddy Piggy-rock on brother...

I've got a headache

"I've got a headache."  That's what she said and that's exactly what I was thinking too.  But she ( a customer in the store) could have done something about it, like making her 6 year old stop repeating the song ABCDEFG... over and over and over and over and over (seriously).  She could also have responded at least once to the many shouts/whines "MOM!!!look a this!  MOM!!! can I have this? MOM!!!Where are you??" from her 9 year old daughter.  Me, all I could do was offer a knowing smile and shrug to the other, clearly annoyed customers in the store (leaving so soon?).  So well over an hour into this joyful shopping experience the saintly, silent Grandmother (MOM's Mom?) took the six year old out to the car,  I switched the too lively salsa music that was playing to a super mellow meditative mix (why didn't I think of this sooner?)  and the atmosphere instantly went from chaos to serenity now ( I actually found myself repeating ala Kramer, with similar results) and after another half an hour, she says she's got a headache. No wonder!  After dawdling over her minuscule purchase at the register for another five minutes while the nine year old pleaded/whined for the tenth time (no exaggeration) "MOM, can we just leave? Please?" She paid up and said/threatened "I'm just going to have to come back later, I've got a headache".  Yup, me too, but mine walked out the door and she got in the car with hers....

Peace to the planet

Stupid Valentine's Day

      So, here goes, the Keeper's first post.  Not very good at love, and  life kinda sucks right now so I'll start with stupid stuff.  Actually stupid people doing or saying stupid stuff.
      I work in a gift store in a resort town so there is no shortage of stupid people. It's almost like when people go on vacation their brain cells do as well-am I this dumb on vacation?....hope not. Anyways, an example-here it is the day before Valentine's day (see how I snuck some love in there?) and two German dudes walk in.

me: How's it goin' guys?

them:  OK- trying to find something for our wives for Valentine's Day tomorrow...you know, nothing special though

Nothing special.....Niiiice right? I mean really, some people are this stupid and here I am the one who's recently (days ago) divorced.  These guys bought a fucking MAGNET for their wives Valentine's gifts.  All right, so admittedly I am just a tad bitter about Valentine's Day this year.  But I have tried to turn that bitterness around and have put my heart into making some kick ass home made cards for my kids. And they came out pretty good if I do say so myself. ( I think I just snuck some Life in there... hey I might be pretty good at  this blogging thing after all)(yes I love writing{and speaking} parenthetically)(deal with it)

I have actually started blogging as a form of therapy, I mean I need some sort of outlet and my therapist is great and everything but I can only afford so much.  Plus I can do this in my underwear, you know, if I wanted to....Not that I am right now or anything...(notice how I also...like....using....yeah, you get  the idea....)

Peace to the planet...